Searching for a higher High?

I was just pondering on something a friend said to me when trying to figure out why I do what I do. The way they see my life, and hear what I have to say, it sounds like I'm always looking for that High - be it in the realm of the Spirit, Soul or Body.

Maybe that's why this is one of my favorite songs:

Go To Extremes - Billy Joel

Call me a joker, call me a fool
Right at this moment I'm totally cool
Clear as a crystal, sharp as a knife
I feel like I'm in the prime of my life
Sometimes it feels like I'm going too fast
I don't know how long this feeling will last
Maybe it's only tonight

Darling I don't know why I go to extremes
Too high or too low there ain't no in-betweens
And if I stand or I fall
It's all or nothing at all
Darling I don't know why I go to extremes

Sometimes I'm tired, sometimes I'm shot
Sometimes I don't know how much more I've got
Maybe I'm headed over the hill
Maybe I've set myself up for the kill
Tell me how much do you think you can take
Until the heart in you is starting to break?
Sometimes it feels like it will

Darling I don't know why I go to extremes
Too high or too low there ain't no in-betweens
You can be sure when I'm gone
I won't be out there too long
Darling I don't know why I go to extremes

Out of the darkness, into the light
Leaving the scene of the crime
Either I'm wrong or I'm perfectly right every time
Sometimes I lie awake, night after night
Coming apart at the seams
Eager to please, ready to fight
Why do I go to extremes?

And if I stand or I fall
It's all or nothing at all
Darling I don't know why I go to extremes
No I don't know why I go to extremes
Too high or too low
There ain't no in-betweens
You can be sure when I'm gone
I won't be out there too long
Darling I don't know why I go to extremes

I don't know why...I don't know why...
I don't know why...I don't know why...
Out in the dark...into the light...

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After pondering for a bit, I realized that I'm not just looking for a higher high. What in fact I am searching for is Meaning. I realized today that when I listen to a song, or watch a movie, read a book, speak to people, etc... I'm not looking for entertainment (most of the time) - I'm looking for Meaning. If I find meaning is the basis for which I enjoy a certain activity. Thankfully, there is always some Meaning to be gained; and, that's why I think I am enjoying Life so much right now. There is meaning in the Highs and the Lows - it's not the feelings I'm focused on, but the lessons to be learned.